TIRED, DEFLATED & NEEDING A REFILL …


I have truly missed writing …

Time sure has a way of going by. Hours run into days, days into weeks and before you know it; boom! Babies are running (LOL!) Trust me, my mind has been writing chapters and making mental notes, but my brain and body have been somewhat too weak to connect the dots and cross the Ts. But alas, I am here, and I am truly grateful for the gift of life. I must confess this year has been a tough year for me. It has been challenging, amidst the smiles, they have been tears and heartaches, but we must press on,  stand tall and keep our praise going. It has been a very tiring couple of months for me, and this has left me almost dispirited and a tad unproductive. I am learning how best to approach this season of my life so I can be all that God would have me be.

It is easy sometimes to overwork ourselves and we refuse to see the signs of a breakdown until we break down. I am learning that wisdom is indeed profitable and God expects me to recognise when I am overwhelmed, and He wants me to ask and accept His help. You see, I have two amazing kids under three years old,  I work full time and my dear fine husband works away from home and is only home during the weekends. I realised that I had adapted myself into some super woman Until a few months ago I snapped at my son for something flimsy. I was tired, exhausted and I just wanted to scream, then I cried and wailed (for no reason at all).  It wasn’t until that drama had ensued that it dawned on me that I had burnt out. I was tired,  both physically and mentally and that If I didn’t press the reset button, I was going to do a bad job of being mummy and an even worse job of being a wife,  sister,  friend and minister.

It is easy sometimes to overwork ourselves and we refuse to see the signs of a breakdown until we break down. I am learning that wisdom is indeed profitable and God expects me to recognise when I am overwhelmed, and He wants me to ask and accept His help. You see, I have two amazing kids under three years old,  I work full time and my dear fine husband works away from home and is only home during the weekends. I realised that I had adapted myself into some super woman Until a few months ago I snapped at my son for something flimsy. I was tired, exhausted and I just wanted to scream, then I cried and wailed (for no reason at all).  It wasn’t until that drama had ensued that it dawned on me that I had burnt out. I was tired,  both physically and mentally and that If I didn’t press the reset button, I was going to do a bad job of being mummy and an even worse job of being a wife,  sister,  friend and minister.

I stood in front of my mirror and looked at the person who was looking right back at me, and I couldn’t quite recognise her. My eyes were red, I looked older, and I felt so haggard. There and then, I decided to prioritise me, just a little more. I made a decision to rest … both physically and spiritually; to stop doing and just breathe. I realised that I had been running and now my fuel/energy was depleted My tires were punctured, flat, and I need some air, lots of air. I was tired, too tired to even wait on God for replenishing.

Ah … Every season comes with its demands, and regardless of whatever season we find ourselves in, we must not let it weigh us down. We must rely on the strength that comes only from abiding in God’s presence. Only He can keep our minds in perfect peace. So, I have decided that I am going to take practical steps to ensure that I replenish my physical self as well as my spirit.

My Steps to Replenishment

1. I am going to prioritise my quiet time no matter what.

2. I shall schedule time weekly to spend with myself doing something I enjoy alone, even if it is just for twenty minutes.

3. I shall ask for help from those willing to help so that I can rest, sleep, take a walk, etc.

4. I must find a prayer buddy and commit to weekly fellowship even if it is just for ten minutes.

5. I must find the courage to say no to commitments which I can pass on and not feel guilty about my stance.

It is a season so I must learn how to enjoy it because It shall come to pass.  Prioritising me is very important not just for my sanity but so that I can be the best version of me all the time. This post might not be for you, but it might be for that woman in your life who is overwhelmed with looking after her precious kids, day in day out.  It may be for that hard working lady who is burning her all to run a successful business or that professional woman who is trying to balance work, life, and family. Or perhaps that hard working man doing everything to meet the needs of his family. Regardless of the season of life, you are in, dear child of God, rest is good for you. Rest is necessary, and God desires to take the weight off you. His grace is sufficient, and his arms are wide open.

Prayer

Today, I receive grace and strength
The world expects me to be a super woman,

performing my role as wife,  mother,  professional

and mogul with grace and poise.
But Lord, often I reach the end of me

and all I have to offer is my broken and tired self.
Today,  I come to you for refilling and replenishing
Fill me up till I overflow
Renew my mind and strengthen me
Surround me with helpers, Lord

that would make resting easy
And help me to put my phone down and shut my eyes
So that in quietness and rest

my strength and purpose in You

would be renewed and fulfilled
In Jesus’ Name.
Amen.

 

 

 

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